I’m Back!

Hey guys! Sorry it’s been so long, I had a lot of stuff going on in my life, but now I’m back! Hopefully, now I can post regularly and share my new music, as well as a short story I might turn into a book eventually. It’s nice to be back!

Poem 2 From A Year Ago

Who am I?

By Trent Schairer

There I am, witting on the couch with the TV on.

Alone I sit, thinking about who I am,

Or rather, who others think I am.

Some may think I’m a pimple-faced loser,

Others may think I’m secretly a psychopath.

But what should it matter to me?

I know who I am, and I don’t care what others think.

This is my life, not theirs,

So who are they to tell me what I can and can’t do?

I don’t tell people how to live their lives,

Because I don’t have control over their lives,

I’m only in control of my own.

Who am I?

I am me.

I am different from others because I don’t let society control me.

I stand out because fitting in is boring.

I live my life the way I want to, and I have a plan for it.

I can’t tell you my plan because you just won’t understand.

You’ll just tell me what everyone else tells me,

And I won’t listen because it won’t work for me.

I am who I am and no one can change that, no one,

So let me live my life, and I’ll let you live yours.

Poem 1 From A Year Ago

Life is Plain/Pain/Gain

By Trent Schairer

Life is plain- boring, yet ever-changing.

Every day’s the same, all but subtle difference.

Today’s the same as yesterday,

But different from yesterday’s yesterday.

Tomorrow’s going to be the same as today,

But different from today’s yesterday.

Life is pain- hurts, but helps.

Death, heartbreak, and questioning,

It all brings us down.

We think we’re all happy,

But something always happens.

We can’t give up, or we’ll all look like clowns.

Life is gain- complex and becoming simple.

We all learn, love, and live.

With plainness and pain

Comes excitement and pleasure,

But only when we look at the truth and lies.

Life is plain, then pain, then gain.

Emotional Storm

Just when I thought my world was becoming brighter, a dark storm just had roll in and fuck it all up. Now I can’t help but to miss the passion I felt when I was with my first true love, Jessie. To love someone so much that I’ll do anything to make sure they’re safe and happy- it haunts me… I had the opportunity with Michael, but the fate I set for myself prevented it from becoming a reality. My
heart hasn’t been this solemn in a long time.

XTDS

Introduction

Hello all! My name is Trent, and I am currently 17 years old (will be 18 in February). I play cello mainly, but can also play viola, viola da gamba, marimba, and bass guitar. Another thing to note is that I’m gay.
This is my blog. It is where you will find someone who is not quite like everyone else. Please note that there may be some content certain religious or “traditional” people may be offended by, and I simply advise you don’t read my blog instead of writing angry messages. This post is just a basic introduction of myself and how I expect people to react to my blog. I thank you in advance for your understanding and cooperation!
I’ve lived my whole life in Albuquerque, New Mexico, and have very much enjoyed it. Mostly. The only time I’d ever been bullied was in 2nd grade by three girls I never knew. Coming out was easy and I haven’t received any judgement or criticism for it. Life- it may seem to most of you anyway- has been fairly easy so far.
My goal for the future since middle school has been to become a famous musician and tour the world, searching for spiritual enlightenment. I plan to do that by doing something rather unique- start a metal band as the cellist. In 6th grade, admittedly the worst year of my life for reasons I’ll explain later, a couple of friends who were guitarists and I decided to start a band. Although we split up later that year, I withheld that dream, joining orchestra in 7th grade as a violist. After discovering 2CELLOS in 8th grade, I became inspired to switch to cello, however I didn’t make the transition until learning the basics from my instructor in 9th grade and then teaching myself over the summer. Good thing the school can loan cellos to students. I finally made a full transition in 10th grade- very smoothly I might add, even more so than learning viola. It felt so natural, so right, like it was meant to be.
Now, I’m writing music. I don’t have the best program (because I can’t afford a better one), but I’ve still been able to come up with some awesome stuff! I’m especially proud of the stuff I’ve done in the past few months. It’s an amazing feeling, watching your dream slowly come true right before your very eyes.
I have loved and lost, and am currently in a more casual relationship. At the moment, I do not know how he feels about disclosing his name, so I will call him Johnson for now. He’s 30 years old and I couldn’t have come upon a more trustworthy and reliable guy. Best friends forever we decided we were, and we’ve been together for 7 months. No, I do not feel awkward by the age difference; in fact, I enjoy it because he guides me based on experiences he’s had, and my mental maturity allows us to connect easier and have mature conversations about life. My favorite thing about him would be how perfectly we fit together when cuddling; it’s almost better than sex!
Lately, I’ve been thinking about ways I can make myself known and Johnson suggested starting a blog, so that’s what I’m doing now. A few things I’d like to say are: (1) if you have something to say, please either say it with respectful and constructive feedback, or just don’t say anything at all- I will not respond to hate messages if they are unreasonable or regarding something out of my control, (2) don’t be afraid to be honest to me, I do not get offended or enraged easily, and (3) you will see some stuff regarding marijuana, furries (as I am one), and obviously gay marriage rights; if you are offended by any of these things, please save us both the time and effort by not doing anything hateful, just simply don’t view my blog. I also expect you to not use any artwork or music without my permission; if you admire my work, don’t be afraid to ask if you can use it. Thanks and enjoy the blog!